I had a great girls night in last night at my sisters apartment. K came over too. We picked her up at the D line & went to Peet’s Coffee and Whole Foods together (to get a roasted chicken for dinner) – K’s visiting from Cali this week. I really miss her being in Boston, but I think she’s ultimately happier there and just needs some time to figure stuff out
We talked in my sister’a kitchen for about 6 hours!! A was there, so was W and my sister’a new friend K. It was actually really fun, and it felt so good to sit around and laugh. We talked about everything. It was nice to remember what it’s like to sit with un-judgmental friends, shooting the breeze. At a lot or points in the convo, I just sat listening, but it was comfortable. I definitely had to remind myself to speak every so often, because I get lost in listening to the conversation and end up just sitting there staring, like I’m watching TV.
We made crépes too! I was so impressed with A because she made the mix for crépes without burning any of them at all! They were nice and spongy 🙂
What I ultimately learned from our conversation was that you can’t change people. We all have different opinions about things, and that’s okay. This is something that I’m finally realizing and that I think I’ll get better at dealing with. It’s so important to just be your best self, and if someone doesn’t like you, that’s fine. You shouldn’t let other people’s negativity outshine your attempts at being positive. If you are your best self and you treat others well, then someone speaking badly of you and not liking you is not your fault. It kind of feels like a relief to really understand this – I feel like I’ve always known it, but I’m beginning to really understand it. And it feels good.
And it feels like such a relief to be in good company – to be with people who are happy to be there for you and who are happy for your successes… and who don’t laugh or get angry and insulted when you have a different opinion.
So, future N, when you feel really down in the future, remind yourself to surround yourself with good company – don’t define your self-worth based off of people who simply just don’t like you and who will never truly be there for you just because. And know that you can’t change them, but you can change yourself. You can change your own attitude – and just be as nice as possible, and you can do no wrong.
This post is all over the place, but forgive me – I only had a few hours of sleep last night due to talking all night with N and K… it’s okay though – definitely worth it.
Oh, also I got BANGS yesterday!!! New year, new hair. I love it. 🙂 I love this place on Comm Ave – it’s called Louie’s.
After getting my nails done today (I got Tour De Finance! SO PRETTY), I went to Panera with C in Coolidge Corner, and we had such a nice chat (a fireside chat haha). I got a cinnamon raisin swirl bagel and some Dr. Pepper mixed with Mountain Dew (oops for drinking two cuploads of sugar..). He’s working on eating healthier and getting more sleep, and he looked so, incredibly handsome… Really, I am the luckiest girl in the world. He treats me like such a princess, and I just feel so happy to have him in my life. He makes me feel complete and every other cliché in the book. Just typing this makes me so happy.
I should make Valentine’s Day plans with C! Maybe we could go to Shabu… haha we go there so much.. I know that PF Chang’s is where we started out going in high school, but it just seems like too sweet and sour for me now. I feel like Shabu Zen is a lot more cozy? I can’t wait to live with C on day… 🙂 I think we go really well together. He makes me want to live forever.
Water Count: 20 oz – need to do better tomorrow!